when so many people (gd friends, classmates, acquaintances etcetc) start to leave for overseas study, u start to ask urself, why not i? why stay in spore?

well, that thought has crossed my mind like a million times already.. why am i in spore struggling with anat, e bane of my life!! i have no idea what's going on for anat, neither does anything abt anat seem to be entering my pea-size brain.. why am i in med??

a while back, i was entirely convinced abt doing med (that time was somewhere in june?) yup! but now, hrmph! doesn't seem like i'm made for med.. yikes! the thought of being in an entirely wrong course has struck me time and time again..

i dunno if i'm starting to regret.. if i had taken up e healthsciences scholarship, i would be erm, prob slacking ard now, or doing an attachment somewhere? leaving only for studies next yr.. and still, i'll prob have a better life in an aus uni, than trying to cram in soo much of anat, of which i fall asleep for hrs and hrs whenever snell or even baby moore is opened =/

but oh well, i've told myself that i'm not willing to give up without a fight.. for if i was convinced that God put me in med for some reason or other (of which i still have yet to see what it is), i should believe now that God will indeed allow me to go on..

hmm that kind of explains why i'm feeling kind of sian these few days.. looking at e timetable.. each day past means e nearing of e CAs.. i know it's a long time more, but i look at e amt of stuff that i have yet to study, and i think, 'gosh i'm seriously never ever going to finish'.. i hope that thought will never ever materialise! i kind of regret not starting to study earlier.. even though i've told myself countless times that uni is not jc anymore, that i can't just slack and study like mad at e end.. oh well, it's not too late to start now.. better late than never!

never felt so stressed up so early in e sch term before.. but then again, this is not jc, this is not ac, this is not scone.. sigh how i really miss scone and ac.. all e gd company, ppl who're like there with u everyday, share e same sentiments abt a particular teacher (=P), know really how to have fun.. aiyah can't really put it in words, but haha i miss scone..

april yl anna suai abi sarah pooja megha marc ks ian ben kenneth simian zhiwei michael benedict samjo brandon aaron yuehan jeremy

haha just felt like rattling off all e names =)

diane and agnes are leaving on wed.. i'll really miss u guys!! =(