i've been having alternating good and bad days this week.
surgery has finally started. this week has been a self-declared non-studying week by me! and so far i've been adhering to it. left the hosp as early as i could everyday, went out, watched tv, ktv-ed etc etc etc..
monday was a good (half) day.. tuesday was shit at first, but alright in the end! wednesday was fruitful. and today (thursday) was sian! lets see what tomorrow brings me =(

i've been thinking about things.. and maybe i should really stop doing too many things for people. sometimes it just goes unappreciated.. sometimes it leads into some huge argument with another party.. ah sigh..
well, at least someone said she thinks i've kinda matured, and changed slightly since she left some time ago in april.

mixed thoughts in my mind on what i should and should not do. what i should or should not put up with.
so many random statements written down one after another to make up a post. really reflects the state of my mind now. ha!

and once again, im not pissy or angsty! and some people should just stop saying those things!! tsktskkkk!!!!! ;p

dont you agree that life is unfair? some people are just so lucky.. do nothing, and get away with things so easily. too bad these lucky things dont ever happen to me =(

decisions decisions..
somehow the decisions that i seem to have to make these days are so trivial.. dont even know if its worth my time thinking about them..

what a terrible morning! so tiring! and now my fate of this medicine posting rests on what, 2 rheumatology short cases??? of which i spent like less than an hr last night reading the procedure of examining the hands =/ please be nicer and pass me! i cant believe that after 8 weeks of posting in the wards, i was tested on things i barely read for an hr! =/ and they're both rheumatology cases =( =( =( =( what happened to murmurs and crepitations and hepatosplenomegaly and hyper-reflexes.. siigh.. all i had were gouty trophi, psoriatic arthritis.. i think instead of examining the woman with psoriatic arthritis, the doctor was like giving me a tutorial in the room.. omg la =( =( anyway, i hope he passed me! hurhur.. cant even convince myself.. and the stupid-est thing was that i didnt even use my stethoscope or tendon tapper or anything i brought with me.. yah whine whine whine..

anyway, a certain f*ck guy is really deserving of his surname! hrmph! if you know who im talking about..

so many changes.. people, places, situations.. i really wish that sometimes i could re-live some parts of the past.. the happy times, the fun times with friends, the meaningful times with family.. anything! sometimes i wish that people wont change so much..
anyway, another change is gonna happen soon again, and more time is needed to get settled into a whole new huge bustling environment.. might not be a bad thing! since sometimes i do actually welcome changes.. just depends on what..
i guess certain changes are good.. but as i went back to an all familiar place for the last time today, and met again with really really nice helpful people.. i wonder when i'll ever see them again..

ah test tmr! =( feel so restless and tired..

haha this is a rather proud moment! can you believe that im still up? and im reading my textbook! (ok, i -was- reading my textbook till i decided to slack for a bit).. the last time i stayed up this late to study (and mind you, its only 1235am now) was prob for pros in m2.. thats all.. after that its been sleeping early and earlier.. or out playing till late.. HA! i hope this last minute studying will actually pay-off.. just realised that im some slack shit today after talking to a friend over the phone, and in horror, realising that i havent seen so many cases/conditions! hmmm.. *crosses fingers* *prays* hoping to pass! hoping that the past 8 weeks wont go to waste.. haha i hope random things i hear during ward rounds come out for mcqs tmr! (then at least waking up at an unearthly hour and going hospital early will actually pay off) haha but lets see how =)

im in a rather good mood now.. albeit feeling scared just now =/ just 2 more days!

i cant think of any other stuffs to blog about cos the things on my mind now are mcqs mcqs mcqs and long case short case.. i was just talking to someone the other day, and we both realise that 8 weeks have gone by quite fast.. dont think we learnt as much as we're supposed to in these 8 weeks =( too late for regrets! just hope that all goes well for the mcqs and long and short cases..

haha i really like this! =)

and i really like the glittery white photoalbum.. even though it had like tonnes of bad photos of me =( but its nice looking at the other photos and seeing the important people in my life =)

shall try to feel happy and look forward to a new week ahead! nothing much to look forward to.. except that i cant wait for the test to be over! then its end of medicine posting! haha 8 weeks! felt like i didnt do much even though each and every day was just tiring..

=(

anyway, public holiday today was great! didnt have to wake up early to go to changi.. which is becoming quite a chore! haha but it turned out that i still went to the east today again! for Brandon's farewell party.. hmm i cant seem to get rid of the changi area =P

i kinda have many things on my mind these days.. haha dont blame me for looking tired, cos i definitely am physically tired! and its been amounting to no studying cos i just fall asleep so easily.. i dunno how im supposed to study so much in the next one week for the mcqs and end of posting test.. failing seems quite a possible thing.. but i shall try not to go there at all.. think everyone knows more than me.. like seriously =/

depressing post this one is turning out to be.. oh well! the weekend is here.. (almost!)

oh right.. just wanna thank everyone who came for my birthday party dinner =) really appreciate you all for being there! everyone of you came into life at some point in time and i really enjoy the relationships that i have with each one of you! it means alot to me to have you as a friend =) hard to express everything in words, so yup, just wanna say a huge thank you once again!!

haha an interesting night.. amazing im still awake =) the things that keep me up till this late - (def not school work or studying).. ah, shant elaborate further.. sleepy sleepy.. its another day in the wards tmr.. OH! today the consultant asked me today if im learning anything during ward rounds.. haha! grrr i very much wanted to say NO! =P but before i could answer her, she said something like how she feels very bad for making us waste time cos we're not learning much.. ah-HA! there you go! please please no more ward rounds! its good if the cases are interesting, if the registrars or assoc-consultants are nice.. but if not.. then.............
OMG! i can heard myself wheeze.. some expiratory sound! =( =( =( quite low-pitched tho.. not high-pitched.. ok.. its probably just time to sleep..

anyway, it was nice chatting with you babe! haha alright, not really a "babe" per se, but nvm ;p can pass off if i imagine hard enough la!

ALONE is nice! haha the plot is nothing great, but it was really quite scary!! ask darius who was cowering behind yl's jacket with me ;p or ian who actually also screamed a few times!! or ben, who according to anna, made low gruntled "AH"s (his version of a "scream" i suppose!).. haha omg it was actually quite fun watching it! i bet everyone else in the theatre thought we were crazy though, cos we kept screaming and laughing.. great company!! =) haha it was such an adrenaline rush affair!
went to arena again! but this time the lead singer was just so terrible! his voice was so nasal! (i swear its worse than the last time i went =/ ).. and his playing of air-guitar and air-drums is just so urghh!!

anyway, aside from a rather nice-ish friday, another boring week has just flown by again.. weeks are creeping by too fast, its scary.. and the end of posting med test is coming soon!! ooopsss =/ i need to study! haha

well well well, i dunno.. why some things always end up that way.. and its not really my fault i think.. anyway, may i have an enjoyable afternoon and night!!

how come i cant change the font type? my blogger thing looks strange =/ bet its just being pissy and refusing to work properly.. so im stuck with such a lousy font..

anyway, i've been so tired! omg! cant believe this.. every morning there's a huge reluctance to get out of bed to go to hospital.. and everyday im sleeping so early..

sian!

gang and qiang's 21st birthday party!! =) it was held at this restaurant (i cant rem the name! =/ ) at Greenleaf Rd!

haha before dinner started, they were made to drink some strange chinese herbal concoction that is supposed to give them added energy!

dont think the "soup thing" was that great tasting eh?
hmm but i vaguely remember shengrong downing like half a bowl of that strange concoction! he did it voluntarily, clearly he needed the "soup" desperately for something!!

(a-ha! found this photo after i typed that above statement)

some photos taken during the course of the dinner.
ben and i.
glenn and i. oh no! i look so terribly happy here! =/

dear diane and i!!
hazel tan! haha

the twins!! haha


us at the third of the table.


happy nice photo of fish diane and me!! =) haha


and im never gonna forgive weili for what he did!! haha shengrong is like just standing there, totally oblivious to what went on! haha


they do everything together as twins..
(but check out that face in the first photo!! ;p )


their reaction after seeing what their huge birthday present was! - moved to tears (to say the least) ;p


illuminators =)


yupyup.. so once again, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY gang n qiang!! =)





haha i shall blog abt ian's birthday soon.. after i get more photos =)

hypothetical situation..
if you suddenly realise that everyone else is "different", and that you cant talk to them anymore, does that mean that everyone else has indeed changed? or are you the one who has changed?
question to ponder..


HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY IAN!! =)

finally decided to put up some photos from fish's birthday =) it was held at Essential Brews, and i arrived at the party really quite late =/ oops! but anyway, i enjoyed myself! haha

fish, diane, me.
me and yihan.

kenrick, me, ian, weili. and a balloon.
glenn (acting cool), me, grace.

shengrong and me.
fish and me.

weili, me, shengrong.
grace, me, claire.

xinquan and me.
fish and dedrick. and the cake.

ian and me.
another 3 people photo =)

shengrong, dedrick, me, marc.
yihan, ian, me.

kenrick, me, ian.
brenda, me, meichin, kenrick.

medicine people + yihan.


illuminators.


we bought 21 shots for fish! but sadly, she only drank like 3?? =(

anyway, the captions for the photos for this entry is terrible! but pardon me, im tired and aching from a whole day in hospital and tonnes of walking after that!
haha im so glad that the weekend is here again!!
till then, Happy 21st Birthday Fish!